Class is a Performance.
Feb. 11th, 2022 04:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kiteinspaceAny time I'm in public it's a performance.
When I'm talking with my classmates over text I'm anxious and not at all in my element. But in a class,
My task is to absorb and be on top of all of the content and the instructor's state of mind (in order to figure out what they want.) By answering questions posed to the class, by letting classmates have their opportunities to learn, and by making jokes/comments during the material which display my mastery - I am in my element. I'm performing expertly and gracefully. If a stage cannot accommodate me, I leave the theatre. (i'm not present in phys or psych. I only make select appearances and cannot be commanded.)
But I can be in a performance all the time. I can perform "myself" whenever I need to. tehre's no need to have stage fright.
And when I'm alone and I feel mastery of myself, is that a performance? but alone the performance feels so natural. Perhaps I can extend this feeling to everybody around me, take everybody into myself and pose them as the "other" that I commune with when I'm very comfortable. After all, the "other" tells me things such as what the public opinion is at any point.
"First absorb. Find your stability. Then act."
First pause, be in the moment, and evaluate your game field. Then play.
When I'm talking with my classmates over text I'm anxious and not at all in my element. But in a class,
My task is to absorb and be on top of all of the content and the instructor's state of mind (in order to figure out what they want.) By answering questions posed to the class, by letting classmates have their opportunities to learn, and by making jokes/comments during the material which display my mastery - I am in my element. I'm performing expertly and gracefully. If a stage cannot accommodate me, I leave the theatre. (i'm not present in phys or psych. I only make select appearances and cannot be commanded.)
But I can be in a performance all the time. I can perform "myself" whenever I need to. tehre's no need to have stage fright.
And when I'm alone and I feel mastery of myself, is that a performance? but alone the performance feels so natural. Perhaps I can extend this feeling to everybody around me, take everybody into myself and pose them as the "other" that I commune with when I'm very comfortable. After all, the "other" tells me things such as what the public opinion is at any point.
"First absorb. Find your stability. Then act."
First pause, be in the moment, and evaluate your game field. Then play.
